My JRT is avoiding me now.

[zerbel]

Hi all,

I'm feeling very miserable due to my JRT, and i regret for my action.

I adopted him from someone else just 3wks ago. However, we grew a very close bond in just a week time. He's very protective and possessive over me.
However things start to change after i hit him.

One day, i brought him out for a walk while accompany my bf to fetch a cab home, and thinking of giving him a little freedom, i unleased him to walk about himself. and the moment he saw my bf got up the cab, he got worried and dash across the road looking for my bf. i got so worried and lost at that point of time bcos a car and bus were driving towards him. and despite how loud i call out for him, he just keep running further. and when i finally got hold of him, i smacked his butt and face real hard. (i know it's sick. but i was so worry and paranoid at the moment that i cant help)

and another time, he have been chasing after those poor cats despite me telling him not to. he just wouldnt listen, and continue to ignore me whenever i call out for him to stop.
i got frustrated again, and hit his butt hard.

Few days back, i guess thats when he is starting to get close to my parents instead of me. and he is rebelling against me.
usually in the middle of the night when im sleeping, he will not bark loudly or make any noises. he will just sleep beside me throughout the night.
but recently, not only he started to bark, he also leaves me alone and just stick to my parents. again, no matter how hard i try to attract his attention, he will just hide behind my parent's back.
and i got even more piss, and walk over to him, catches him, smack him everywhere and screamed at him. though he did make those 'grrrrr' sound that a dog gives up before barking/angry; i ignored.

I make an effort to make up to him, by taking MC/leaves at work to go home and accompany him while my parents are not home. he was fine, and stick with me like usual.
However, once my parent is back, he quickly ran towards them and ignore me.
It just make me feel so dishearten, and like a substitute to him.
I'm the one who brought him home, splurge money and time on him, but he treat me more like a toy.

sigh, i believe he is just traumatise and afraid that i might hit him again.
i regretted for my action. but he just doesnt seems to be able to forgive me anymore.

anybody here can advice on what should i do?
he is not some dogs that can be tame by treats/good walk